3 years sober – Who dis?

1,096 days alcohol-free

USUALLY when you see an “after” picture, it looks better than the “before”, but not this time.

Never EVER did I think I’d be the sober one. Never EVER did I think that I could break up with alcohol. It had such a strong hold on me, that I felt powerless to it.

In 2015, after a shitty winter & spring and even shittier summer, I vowed to get my life together. This included a one week stay at a mental health facility, months of intense therapy after I was released and ultimately cutting ties with old “friends”. I worked my ass off to lose the 20 lbs. I gained and get back in shape. At the beginning of October I set the goal to scale way back on my drinking because it had become very apparent that alcohol was creating bigger problems in my already fucked up brain and life. I gave myself permission to “only drink 5 times” that month. It was hard, but I was really saving up the time for my trip to Miami to see my coach Becky and celebrate a huge milestone with her plus celebrate my husband Ryan’s 39th birthday while there.

On October 24th, the day before Ryan’s birthday, we got all dressed up & ready to go.

The “before picture” was taken moments before my first Red Bull and Vodka .. at 4 P.M. This is the Mindy most people saw via Social Media. Fun, social, happy Mindy. No one really realized how bad it was or how easily I could turn into the Mindy on the right.

Drinking is so socially accepted and everyone is so used to seeing pictures of people with drinks in their hands, “living it up” because, well you know YOLO! No one ever stops to think about the severity of the frequency of their drinking.

But this night was the last night I’d drink. The next morning I’d declare my sobriety. No one really believed me because haven’t we all said, after a long night of partying, when we felt like shit, “I’ll never drink again!”? But this time was different. I meant it.  3 years ago, on October 25th, I made a promise to myself that I’m proud to say I’ve kept. I don’t say “I will NEVER drink again.” I just take one day at a time. And to be honest, when I’ve thought about having a drink, the thought of losing my streak or having to start all over again is a harder pill to swallow than going alcohol-free. My kids asked me in the beginning, “But what if something happens or you want to celebrate, will you drink then?” And my answer has always been… “I’ve went this long and encountered things that piss me off, make me sad, make me uncomfortable and achieved things I am proud of, and I made it through them all without alcohol, so why would I add it back in to my life?” Every time I think about having a drink, I sit back and ask myself if the situation or the “1 drink” would really be worth it and the answer has stayed “NO” for 3 years.

I don’t have any clever saying or epic advice other than the total cliché: IF I CAN DO IT, THEN SO CAN YOU!

It’s worth it.
You’re worth it.

It will be hard, but for anything worth having one must pay the price; and the price is always work, patience, love, self-sacrifice – no paper currency, no promises to pay, but the gold of real service

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