๐๐๐ ๐๐๐พ๐๐: our inner dialogue that tells us that we should have done something different even though we canโt know if the decision was wrong ๐๐๐ถ๐๐ ๐๐: moving 2,000 miles away from my daughters for 18 months ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ผ๏ผฅ๏ผถ๏ผฅ๏ผฒ๏ผน๏ผฏ๏ผฎ๏ผฅ ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ ๏ฝ ๐๐๐๐๐พ๐๐๐น ๐ถ๐๐น ๐พ๐ ๐ป๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐น On Monday, November 18th, I began to pack up the entire […]
How do I become UNFUCKWITHABLE again?
Iโve decided to just come out and say it!โฃโฃโฃThere is something I have been hiding because I have felt shame, disappointment and anger (with myself) over this. โฃโฃโฃโฃI really donโt know how to put it all into words. โฃโฃ I felt like I had the world by the balls in 2013-2014. `โฃโฃI felt invincible, unstoppable, […]
Sober October – Day 1,458
The first 9 months of 2015 was a total shit show. I decided to regain control and that started with changing my lifestyle & who I associated with. At the beginning of October 2015, I made the decision to โcut backโ on my drinking and gave myself ONLY 5 days to drink that month. I […]
The Runaway
๐ธ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ข ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ข ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ข ๐๐ ๐ธ๐ถ๐ท๐นโฆ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐, ๐ธ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ธ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐. ๐ธ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ข ๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ธ ๐๐๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐. ๐ฑ๐๐ ๐ธ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ โ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐โ. ๐พ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ข๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ข ๐๐๐โ๐ […]
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Surviving 2019
I haven’t updated my blog in months. 8 months to be exact. I wish I had a good reason why, but don’t. All I have are excuses. So much has happened, so much has changed in our life over the past 18 months. About a year ago, I shared that we’d relocated from Texas back […]
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road, time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go….
38 – THIRTY EIGHT – In the blink of an eye, here I am “middle-aged”, almost 40. How the hell did that happen? It seems like just yesterday that I was in my 20’s thinking to myself, “When Haylie is 18, I will be 36, exactly double here age!” At the time, 36 seemed so […]
Is this what “normal” feels like?
I never felt “normal”. I have sought out a solution, searched for help just to feel “normal”. Even though I didn’t know what “normal” felt like, I knew that MY “normal” wasn’t right. Five weeks ago, I spent an hour with a new doctor, who took the time to ask me in-depth questions regarding my […]
The Runaway
My Story ….. This is part of my story that I have never shared. Many of you know that I was adopted and have heard different parts of my adoption story, but I have never told the story of the night I ran away. This picture was taken over 3 months ago, but I am […]
3 years sober – Who dis?
1,096 days alcohol-free USUALLY when you see an โafterโ picture, it looks better than the โbeforeโ, but not this time. Never EVER did I think I’d be the sober one. Never EVER did I think that I could break up with alcohol. It had such a strong hold on me, that I felt powerless to […]
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Spreading HOPE through my story of mental illness
Hold on! There’s help coming! There’s hope! Iโm holding on to HOPE! For as long as I can remember, I have been convinced that Iโm โcrazyโ. I always and STILL wonder if mental illness is part of my family medical history, but being an adoptee…. Iโll NEVER know. I will always wonder if my broken […]