38 – THIRTY EIGHT – In the blink of an eye, here I am “middle-aged”, almost 40. How the hell did that happen? It seems like just yesterday that I was in my 20’s thinking to myself, “When Haylie is 18, I will be 36, exactly double here age!” At the time, 36 seemed so […]
Is this what “normal” feels like?
I never felt “normal”. I have sought out a solution, searched for help just to feel “normal”. Even though I didn’t know what “normal” felt like, I knew that MY “normal” wasn’t right. Five weeks ago, I spent an hour with a new doctor, who took the time to ask me in-depth questions regarding my […]
The Runaway
My Story ….. This is part of my story that I have never shared. Many of you know that I was adopted and have heard different parts of my adoption story, but I have never told the story of the night I ran away. This picture was taken over 3 months ago, but I am […]
3 years sober – Who dis?
1,096 days alcohol-free USUALLY when you see an “after” picture, it looks better than the “before”, but not this time. Never EVER did I think I’d be the sober one. Never EVER did I think that I could break up with alcohol. It had such a strong hold on me, that I felt powerless to […]
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Spreading HOPE through my story of mental illness
Hold on! There’s help coming! There’s hope! I’m holding on to HOPE! For as long as I can remember, I have been convinced that I’m “crazy”. I always and STILL wonder if mental illness is part of my family medical history, but being an adoptee…. I’ll NEVER know. I will always wonder if my broken […]
Love and Marriage through Sobriety
Sobering Up and Growing Up Sobriety not only changed me, but the dynamics of our marriage. Our love began when we were young. 25 and 29. We didn’t feel young then. But now at almost 38 and 42, looking back we WERE so young. Our love began when we were unhappy and unhappily married to […]
We Moved — Back to Cali!
Shame on me! I have been hiding! I have not shown up! Why? We moved, but NO EXCUSES! My hiding ends now! Where have I been? We moved. In March, we moved out of the house we’d lived in for almost 10 years. We sold what we could and put the rest of our belongings that […]
Health Update: PCOS & the 2B Mindset
Shame on me! I have not been diligent with keeping my blog updated. I will be the first to admit that I tend to do all of my sharing on social media on Facebook and Instagram. In December 2017, after a year-long battle with my weight and a slow decline in my health, I finally started […]
The Power of Positive Thinking
The Power of Positive Thinking, the Law of Attraction & the use of Daily Affirmations Do you strive to be a positive person? Have you ever found yourself feeling down about yourself or doubtful? Maybe you struggle with seasonal depression or self-confidence, or maybe you’ve just had a rough day. At times it may seem […]
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To shake or not to shake? It’s not a FAD! It’s a LIFESTYLE!
Are you getting your daily dose of dense nutrition? Are you a “shake” person? Are you a smoothie lover? Exactly 6 years ago I had my wisdom teeth removed. I remember looking online for “smoothie recipes”. I also remember being hopeful that I’d lose weight since I would be unable to eat solid food. I […]